Even your shadow will leave you

I got this message in our group, Indonesian students of Yuntech, yesterday from one of visiting professor who teaching at Yuntech this semester. For some reasons, this message is appropriate with my condition. Yesterday I discussed my worries about my supervisors' expectation on me with one of my friend, and I said that I feel I can't fulfill it.
I remember that there were so many things I should ask someone to lend their hand to finish my problem. Someone help me to run the statistics on my thesis when I was in bachelor degree, I need my senior to prepare my teaching material, etc, even now, when I'm working on my PhD here, in Taiwan, there always someone who help me to accompany or ride me when I have to go to some places in Taiwan.  Last year, someone will accompany me, or even picked me when I went to Taichung, Tainan, Kaohsiung. Consequently, when they go back to Indonesia, and I have to accompany new student from Indonesia, I get lost. Sadly, the student which it should be my responsibility, He can solve the problem by his own..hemmm.
I know that I have so many friends and connections,   that I can rely on when I need them. However, it makes me become too dependent on them, I can't solve the problem on my own, and it makes me can't grow up like what I expected, or like what my advisor expected. It give me more pressure.
If I want to achieve like what he said to me, I know I need to give myself some treatments like...I need to prepare myself to be ready stand on the spot (one of my biggest weakness, I don't like to put myself on the spot, but you always put yourself on the hot pot...he2), and I have to be more struggle on my dream, or at least on my plan (like what he said also to my friend during our business trip to Huwei HSR station..Plan your work, Work your plan).
I know and understand these 2 weaknesses, I know I have to solve it....But I always fail, until now.
Struggle, I should learn from 2 people around me now..If I could have their spirit, even only half of it...I believe I can achieve more
Put yourself on the spot, try to be the best, or get the best...I don't know, Maybe Allah arrange this meeting...even only for a short time..it seem like what I feel when I met with my first murabbi, I met with the no 1, and now..they inspire me, give me motivations to move to the next level..to be better, and reaching something I never imagine before (Wish I could make it).
But keep remember this..don't make yourself too rely on others, try to be more independent, everything will goes depend on yourself. (ahhh...but it still too difficult to leave something that become my strength before this)